Two worlds

Sometimes I feel like I am caught between two worlds. Being raised by Egyptian parents in Canada has made for some tricky situations. In addition, the Christian community I grew up in has its own quirks. I'm not really sure how to navigate the different issues that arise.

What am I supposed to do ? Do what my instincts tell me ? Do what my parents are telling me is right ? Do what I think is right? Difficult since I'm not really clear on what I think is right. Do what my Canadian culture says is right ? How about my Canadian Church culture ? Sometimes, I am just at a loss.

Well, a situation arose over the last little while. I was troubled, so I prayed. Then, having no clear "Thou shalt ...", I went with what I was feeling. Well, wouldn't you know it, my parents and my sister strongly disagreed with my choice. I felt clobbered, and beat up in the worst way. And, before it even started there was plenty on my mind. It was difficult.

This is not the first time it happens. This time it exhausted me. In the past, I have often given in - to my detriment. Now, I am trying to stand my ground - it is scary.