Quiet Days

Its been quiet the last couple of days.  Our class does not start up again until tomorrow.  I'm doing the 10 day session.  Its entitled "Cultivating a Prophetic Spirit".  Prophecy, since the day I heard of it, has fascinated me.  I'm sure we'll cover the basics - Fast, Pray, Clean Eyes, Pure Heart.  But, I'm hoping there's a little more to it than that.

So, the last two days I've been hanging out at home.  I have a slow start to the day, eat breakfast, read my Bible, journal, nap, eat lunch, head out to the Prayer Room, come home, eat supper and watch a bit of TV, maybe finish off some tidbits then go to bed.

I've had to Theme kinda things over the last couple of weeks.  Things that I'm learning, watching my thoughts on and changing my thinking about.  The first was - comfort from God, not looking to other people or things.  That's a big one for me.  And, I definitely don't have it under control at all - but, its better.  Except for the eating - right now my ability to control what I eat sucks.  Number two - no more doing things out of guilt and no more allowing myself to feel guilty.  That's another huge one.  I never realized how much guilt and fear of hurting/upsetting another (or God) actually drove so much of what I do.  

This coming weekend is the Israel Mandate conference.  I've never been compelled to think or pray about Israel, but apparently it is a big deal to God.  So, this coming weekend I get to hear a little bit more about it.

Summary of the summary

It's been awhile since I really blogged.  How do I summarize all that God has done.  He is working on all of me, changing how I think about things, about Him, about me, and giving me new ways of dealing with life, people, situations, hurts.  I feel like a child learning how to do life in a new way.  My reality is changing.

There is still more that I want from God.  I want His love to be real to me.  So real that I never doubt that it is unconditional, and encompassing.  

I've heard them say here that God doesn't only love you, He likes you, He enjoys you, enjoys who you are.  I want that to be tangible to me.  God's job is to change and convince me.  Arrogant and demanding perhaps, but only God can change a person's heart enough to hear the words He whispers in their ear.

I'm developing a way of praying that gives me structure, flexibility and is effective.

I've received some wonderful prophetic words.  They do not prophecy, mates, dates, babies or direction.  They prophecy according 1 Cor 14:3, for comfort, encouragement and strengthening.

This month we've learned about Hosea, and Song of Songs.  God's theme this month has been He is deeply personal and highly emotional.  It is so true.  This is the last week of our Intimacy month.  Last month we learned about Joel and the end times.  It rocked, it gave me the first hints of a dream for my life.

I'll be here another two weeks.  That's it.  The Lord has plans for me elsewhere....I will save those for another blog.