Falling in Love

I fell in love with my God in Kansas City.

But, let's start at the beginning. A dear friend invited me to spend New Year's in Kansas at the One Thing Conference run by the International House of Prayer (IHOP). For years and years I've done all of nothing on New Year's eve, so after some praying and fiddling over where to stay and plane schedules - I was off. That's as beginning as this gets, because I want to move on to the good stuff.

The conference went from Dec 27th to Jan 1st. I arrived late on the 27th and didn't make it until the first session of the 28th. And, I was captured. The hours and days went by in a blur. There were times of worship where I was lost in all the moments that make up hours. There were times of teaching that rang so true, so real and spoke of God's passion for me (and, everyone else) and there were times of teaching on how to be and do the things a child of God does.

And, it was intense. If you know me well, you know I'm intense. It scares me sometimes. And, I often curb that intensity in fear of scaring others. But, this was me. This place was about intensity. Feeling utterly, and completely lost, consumed, devoted, mesmerized and madly in love with God is what I was created to be. Here I learned that's what my intensity longs for and that it was ok to be like that. And, here was the first place in my entire life that I thought - this I can find purpose in. It is pure pleasure to think back to it.

And, there was healing. I cannot tell you what God did. But, He did. I feel a wholeness that I've never felt before. I have long wept for being single - seeking and longing for another. A couple days after returning, God pointed my heart out to me. And, my heart was ok being single. That is HUGE.

Oh, that I could spend my life in a place like that. Approriately, the reason behind the conference's title "One Thing" - Ps 27:4 - "One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple."