Not yet ...

So, change hasn't happenned yet.  Well, change has happenned, but it isn't the change the brings me out of the wilderness.  Mostly, I've been drawn in even deeper.  Grrrr....I've encountered areas of such pain that I cringe with.  And, yet still frustrating is the complete lack of a visible reason.  But, its good because I'm learning about mercy and grace in ways I've never experienced before.    Y'know a relationship with God is an experience.  You experience His mercy, when you do things that make you feel really guilty and He removes that guilt.  You experience His grace when you've gotten yourself stuck into a tight ugly spot and He pulls you out.  Religion is about experiencing God.

Yesterday we went on a picnic with our class.  It was nice.  Then a friend and I drove around for 3 hours, admired nature, gawked at beautiful houses and architecture and did a little shopping jaunt.