Trust

I'm reading this book called - "Breaking the Bondage of Legalism". Good book. I'm in the middle of a chapter about Brokenness. And, I've been praying about being teachable, malleable so that God doesn't have to break me before I learn something. My hopes were dashed by this line -

There is a theme running throughout God's creation and Scriptures, and this is that there can be no making without breaking.

Then there is this line :

Are you willing to say to the Lord, "I will allow You to put me through any experience that You want me to go through. I want You to do in and through me whatever You wish, Lord, for I belong to You and I fully trust You to have my best interest at heart?"

Gulp. Uh, nope. I don't have trust like that. Definitely - nope. My first thought is - it'll hurt, it'll hurt, it'll hurt. I mean seriously - if I have a choice between no pain and pain, I will choose no pain every time. That's a pretty intense question, but it is a true question. That's the kind of trust God wants - I have no doubt. Are people even capable of trusting that fully ?

Fortunately, God doesn't expect me to be perfect.